It's a Brand New Week on the Eve of a Brand New Month!

So February was pretty much a bust for this girl. On this last day of the month I find myself struggling with everything that I was succeeding in during January. I worked in Mississippi and although I planned for being away from home most of the month, I bought healthy foods and tried to fix more meals than eating from fast food or restuarants, I was determined to keep it up and lose more, I planned for exercise and taking good care of myself, it kind of all went to hell in a handbasket. It seemed as if all the forces of nature conspired against me for getting my work outs in...although I did manage to get some in everything from bad weather, high crime, time of day, not having a working dvd player for quite awhile and just plain exhaustion from being up all hours sabotouged more than a few work outs. As far as eating I did much much better than last time I was here. I still ate some bad things but overall I did okay.
I came home and was pretty tired and haven't really gotten back into the swing of things...my journals are hit and miss, my exercise is fairly non-existent and my eating pretty much sucks...not sure what is my problem but I find myself in a little bit of a funk!

So what do I do? Do I give up on my resolution and my self? Absolutely not...every road to success has lots of hard parts and to fail would be folly. Nope I have to pick myself up and just keep going, try harder, figure it out, get back on the path, be strong and never, ever give up!

Forgive me...it's been too long since my last confession!

I have a confession...I hate like a flipping pig last night...I could not stop. I had a nice little dinner and then went home and started working, and eating. I had a 60c pudding cup, then an entire bag of microwave popcorn, then another pudding cup, then some guest cookies that were in my mini-fridge (pirouleenes?) those little round tea cookies, then later two pieces of baby bel cheese and some triscuits and Iced Tea! YIKES! What the hell is wrong with me? Mother Nature decided to pull a fast one on me but really? That isn't a reason to pork out!!! So I sat and contemplated this phenom and really tried to figure out what I was feeling...the answer? Loneliness! Okay so now I need to figure out how to NOT eat when I'm feeling a little lonely. I would love to have a friend to work out with, to call and talk to for hours and go to movies with and I would like for that friend to be a guy. I miss my guy friends! I haven't had a really great one for a few years and I think that would really be cool! Also, another thing I shouldn't say but while I'm confessing I'm going to go ahead...I would really like a Valentine this year, being in Mississippi that isn't going to happen but I can still wish! The last little confession for today is not really a bad thing but in a sense a secret. I found out the times and places for 'The Biggest Loser' Casting Call and I'm going at the end of the month to audition! That's about all for now!


Whew...it feels good to just get that off my chest!

Keeping true on the move

I knew that traveling and staying away from home for a few weeks would present special challenges to my life style changes but I must be able to deal with them successfully because essentially life is all about change and we are often pushed into uncomfortable situations and times! If we have a dieting or short term mentality when it comes to changing our body I imagine it is fairly easy to get off track, but if it is an entirely new way of living that we are striving for these hurdles need to be carefully assessed so that we can successfully jump them! I have done fairly well in my new situation, exercise and diet wise although last night I had fried chicken...and I paid the price, it made me a little sick to my stomach but a much worse mental cost. I beat myself up for quite awhile last night and when I started feeling physically better I dragged my booty up and went to the gym again. I worked pretty hard but still wish I could hire a trainer again. I think that having a trainer or even a serious work out buddy would really help me push myself to the next level.

As far as eating the chicken is concerned I woke up this morning, wrote about it in my food journal and forgave myself...now it's time to move on and do better, that's the whole thing with lifestyle changes, you're going to eat stuff through life that you probably shouldn't have but how you subsequently carry on after that is crucial. Accept it and move on and don't let one (or even a couple) bad choices derail your progress, your whole life...that's just throwing the baby out with the bath water. Unfortunately dieting tends to have that effect on people and may be a big reason it doesn't work!

Have a great day!