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The wall that I have built around me to protect and keep me from being hurt is the same wall that keeps me alone and unlovable and I don’t know how to break it down.

No Pain, No Gain?

I am beginning the process of training for my first 1/2 marathon this October!  I'm upping my mileage and I'm experiencing some pain...my feet mostly.  It's probably a combination of being a big girl and being an old girl but I am determined to keep it going.  Eventually it will all be worth it right?  I'm down another 4lbs...woohoo! 

Where did the time go?!?!

So here it is the 8th and I realized that I haven't written for several days...bad blogging!  I had a whirlwind weekend and last few days and limited internet access/time so I forgive myself and move on!  The exciting news is...my best friend Michelle, who BTW has been losing weight like a mad woman and looks Freaking FANTASTIC I'd like to ad, gave me a big bag of clothes this weekend...some of which I had given her over the years, some of them new to me...the really cool part?  They are sizes down and I have officially found myself in 2 (and in some cases 3) sizes smaller clothing!!!  woo hoo...I am just so excited and hopefully this isn't coming across as being a little braggart but I feel like doing the Irene Cara "what a feeling" dance and I can't wipe the smile off my face!  My mom even noticed today...so what I'd like to share to anybody reading this...or to myself if I read this again in the future...keep on keeping on, don't ever give up on yourself, find multiple ways to measure your success because it is worth it and fitting successfully into smaller clothes is just one little awesome perk of getting your booty healthy and in shape! 

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Checking In

In an attempt to blog more often I am setting my goal to write every other day minimum at least a paragraph.  Yesterday I had an appointment with my nutritionist (whom I call Diabetty) and I had lost yet another 2lbs...so now I am feeling encouraged again and want to try for 4 more lbs so I can hit a total of 40lbs (once more...I hit this goal earlier and "backslid")
I am attempting smaller goals, little chunks so to speak, because I always tend to bite off more than I can chew and then I think I feel a little overwhelmed. 
Anyway, back to Diabetty and my meeting...she was so proud of me and my numbers that she gave me a hug and if you know me I'm not so much a hugger, but it really was a cool moment.  In addition I am sore from all the walking and running I have been doing but I am determined to get my miles up and more pounds down! 
South Beach?  So far, so good...I'm thinking that this may be a really good choice for me...I'm more conscious of making good all around food choices rather than just how many carbs something has in it...I'm looking at Fiber, (29 grams a day) and fat and protein and then the overall nutrient value...I think Dr. Agaston and I are going to have a wonderful relationship! 
It's pouring down raining here today and the wind is blowing like mad but I am set to get a good hard work out in...I'm going for an hour in the house and then see if the weather lets up a bit so I can my run on! :)  My P90X is defective somehow so I am working on getting either the dvd adjusted or fix the tracking (can you do that on dvd's or did I just date myself back to vhs thinking?)  When P90X starts I probably wont have the energy to write, but I'll try! 

Dolce' Vita!