A brand new year and attitude!

Last spring as my life was derailing I managed to lose weight, eat healthy, reduce stress and exercise regularly...then I got my headaches and life came to a sudden halt! I was diagnosed with a spontaneous csf leak in my head...basically a tear in the lining of my brain, not fatal but fricking painful. I have learned to deal with the pain with copious amounts of caffeine and taking better care of myself and the good news is I have a neurology appt. in March! My blood pressure has dropped to the normal range and my doctor believes that may be a direct result of consciously reducing my stress but...

Last month I received some rather crapulous news from my doctor, I have diabetes. This is something I haven't really wanted to share with anybody, I'm pretty embarassed by it actually. However I believe that in order to change I am going to have do some things differently and one of them is admitting when I have a problem and then fixing it from there as opposed to pretending there isn't a problem!

I don't usually make New Year's resolutions, or at lease one's that I intend to keep so I thought that maybe that would be a good place to change...make one resolution and see it through for the entire year...no matter what!

So with planning and tracking I started the 2011 with a positive attitude, specific goals and the knowledge that I am going to have to crack down and do what needs to be done even if it isn't pleasant or comfortable! NOBODY, including this phat girl wants to hear that somebody is losing weight by good diet and exercise but the reality of it is that in order to make weight loss changes that last for the rest of ones life I believe that is how it needs to be done! This morning on my walk I just kept repeating "pain is weakness leaving the body" I think that's something I heard from my brother but being sore and working through it is not only building strength in my body it's building strength of character.

My goal is to lose 144lbs this year, that's a 12 lb a month average loss...but if the people on biggest loser can lose more than that in 6-7 months I can do so in a year. I have been an athlete (albeit a chubby one now) for quite awhile but I know that I can do this and I'm going to use my blog to detail how!