It's one a.m. and I can't sleep, so I may as well write. After dropping the heavy topic bomb in my last post I actually found a story of a woman who was on the 'Joy Fit Club' who had somewhat similar experience to mine and had lost 179 lbs in 1 year!!! She was talking about how she decided to no longer be a victim and that got me to thinking...do I consider myself a victim? I really don't! I don't think often about what happened, it was a long time ago and I have dealt with it on several occasions, I have led an exceptionally full and wonderful life despite my ups and downs with my weight. I know that I can't go back and change the past but that I don't have to let it steal the joy from my today or tomorrows. I shared that instance on my blog because it was the catalyst for gaining all that weight all those years ago. I know that I am a confident, successful woman. I have had a wonderfully full life and I am happy right now just the way I am...most of the time.
I know that carrying this extra fat around is endangering my health and in turn my future, I want to be an active, sexy grandma someday (not for a few years...but I'm planning) but in all honesty the weight issues I deal with, the success and failure of all the diets are intimately linked in with my relationships with men and so ultimately I believe I needed to start at the beginning. Boy, I am probably rambling along with no real purpose. Like I said in my previous post I will probably have to address this issue and deal with it until it's fixed enough for me to be successful at getting and keeping this weight off for good! Thanks for bearing with me!
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